Equivelant Trade

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

hi, as u all going through my post for this, especially those in DBS de, 3 weeks only but some has already raised qns abt me. often they ask y i always look so cheerful and wun b emo at poly?
well, to b honest, i had to b as cheerful as i am in sch, if nt at home, i sure will b emo.
during at home, i always will b alone at home. parents all go out to work, brother go out to work and i always had to b at home alone. from monday to saturday. always at home feels like im at prison.
then my parents r nt tht gd in relationship le, they now dun even talk to each other. and how can i have a gd family like this, when i do a litttle bit wrong, my mum start to nag, start to scold me, and its always more than 5 mins. this has been happening for abt 8-10 years le. i believe some of u all might not b even able to stand if u r me la. sunday i stay at home also, no family picnic, nth, juz stay at home.
when i wan to go out, my mum always dun allow me to go, nt those go but come back early de type, its really cant let u out. im almost 17 and if i cant even go out, wat r u all expecting at? even if have, my mum will sure call me, inspect me, its like im being spyed.
now ppl like to go out, i also wan to go out, though i now can go out relatively, but its tht her control is too strict. then my own PSP she also wan to keep and lock, then i cant even play la.
so if i keep letting this to bring to sch, i will sure nt talking to anybody. i dun wan, i wan to noe more frens. and i always ensure i dun let this affect me. and to b honest, i really had a great bunch of frens in DBS.

10:50 PM